These were the words Kris wrote and spoke for Analin's memorial. <3 You can read more about her here.
I want to start by thanking all of you for coming tonight. Carrie and I have been overwhelmed by all the love and support we’ve received from our families, friends and colleagues. It has been incredibly helpful to us to know that we have not been alone in our grief. We can never express our gratitude to all of you, but we will always try.
One of the things I kept asking myself early last week was ‘Why?’. Why did this happen to us?
Why did this happen to our family? What had we done to deserve this fate?
I know that many of you shared the same question with me. That this was so pointless - that it was so hard to understand the reason for our loss.
I’ve come to realize that it’s really the wrong question to ask - this should not make us question and it’s not helpful for us to ask ‘why’.
If there’s a greater meaning with Analin’s death, I cannot see it - But what I can do, is to cherish Analin’s memory and make her mean something.
I take great strength from the fact that Analin was with us for 38 weeks. I smile when I think about how she would get mad at Carrie (and me I suppose) when the food Carrie ate was too spicy. It was amazing to feel Carrie’s belly when Analin had hiccups.
It was incredible to see when Analin had her kick-boxing workouts.
I will cherish forever those hard, hard hours after Analin was born when we had her in our room at the hospital. When we got to hold our baby-girl in our arms.
As I think of all those memories, I so wish that we could have had more. Right now, that’s the hardest thing for me to accept - that those incredible memories won’t continue. It makes me so sad but I’m really grateful that since I can’t have those future memories, at least I have some.
I’ve been thinking a lot about how you actually can have a memorial for a baby girl when you hadn’t spent all that much time with her. But the thing is - I know her. We all do. And I know she’s with us. Right here.
We know she would have been beautiful and compassionate like her mother.
She would have been smart and sweet like her oldest brother Joshua. She would have been smiling and happy like her brother, Sebastian.
And maybe she would have had her father’s sense of humor - which of course would have driven her mother crazy.
We know she would have been all those things - and of course, she would have been completely her own - our unique, amazing, beautiful girl.
So what do we do now? Well, we continue. Analin and her story is now part of our family and we will always keep her memory with us. We will cherish life and we will keep sharing our love with our family and our friends. We will try to be the best people we can be. Now this is just part of us and our lives.
I want to share with you just how amazing Carrie and our boys have been to me and to our family in the last week. Our boys are our super-heroes.
Carrie, it sucks so much that we have to go through this, but I’m so incredibly grateful that since I have to go through it, that I go through it with you. You’ve been amazing for me, for our boys and you give us so much strength. Not an hour passes without me thanking the stars for you.
I want to finish by saying thank you again to our family, our friends and also to Kristin and everyone from Tiny Purpose. We will always be grateful for the support you have given us in these difficult days.
And of course a huge thank you to all for being with us tonight - we appreciate it more than you’ll ever know.
We will continue to need to lean on you. But you can lean on us too.
Tonight, we want to start a tradition that we intend to keep every year on Analin’s birthday - and that is to release sky lanterns. So with your help, we’d like to begin.